Today my Timehop reminded me of what I used to look like pre-baby. Well, I’m probably being mean to myself as it was a picture from 2010 so thats 7 years ago now so it’s silly to compare – but looking back I almost don’t recognise myself! I was young, perfectly preened on a night out. Plus, I WAS NOT EXHAUSTED. I can’t really remember what that feels like – being a mother turns your life upside down and now we are seven months down the line, it’s hard to remember what life was like before! What did I do with all that time? Why did I moan I was tired? WHY did I think I was fat when I fitted into a size 10/12? Oh how things change!
All of this being said I wouldn’t change it for the world – Violet is everything to me and so is being a mother. I just LOVE motherhood. I feel like it came so naturally to me and I don’t mean that in a boastful way as I certainly don’t know what the hell I’m doing most of the time – but I mean I just love every second. Taking care of Violet and watching her learn and grow is my world. I feel in my element when I’m with her, which fulfils me more than any job or hobby I’ve ever had.
So, I thought today I’d talk about some of the ways motherhood has changed me as a person – hopefully for the better, although at 4am when I’m feeling tired and grumpy, maybe not so much…
I’m more patient
I have more compassion
I forget things
Another thing I thought would be pregnancy-related, but no! Baby brain sticks with you forever – gone are the days I can write 3-4 blog posts in a day. If I write 1 I feel like it’s a miracle as my brain just works so SLOWLY these days. I also have a habit of forgetting simple things (like closing the front door – kind of important!) and leaving the house in my slippers.
I’m less anxious
I can adapt
I am a skilled multi-tasker
I don’t care about what people think
I care less about what I look like
Before Violet I didn’t even pop to the shops without a full face of make-up. I straightened my hair every day and always had painted nails. Now? Not so much, I’m happy with a quick 2 minute splash of make-up (or nothing) and my hair in a Mum-bun. It’s not that I don’t have time for it, I probably do but I’d rather spend that time playing with Violet. I still do enjoy putting on a full-face sometimes and when I do I feel extra pampered and special too!
A smile can bring so much joy
Being a mum has taught me that the little things in life are where you find the most joy – beforehand I was seeking big things and always ended up being disappointed. But now, just a single smile or an afternoon with Violet on her playmat singing songs and clapping along. Motherhood teaches you a lot about living in the moment and appreciating the little things as babies change and grow up SO quickly.
Party girl I am not
The other day I drove through Brighton at 10pm on a Friday night, I saw hoards of girls in short skirts queuing for a bar, shivering and huddling together as obviously you would NEVER take a jacket. I’m not that girl anymore – bring me my Pj’s, crochet and a bar of chocolate and that is my PERFECT Friday night, plus there is no hangover either. Win win!
I am fulfilled
This one is hard to put into words, but I feel like Violet was the missing puzzle piece of my life I’d been looking for for so long. I feel complete with her by my side and my heart is so full of love for her in a way I can never describe. Being a mother is just everything I dreamed of and more and I can’t wait to see what is in store for us over the years.
And in case you were wondering…. this is the picture from 7 years ago (I think I prefer the first picture more 🙂 )
How do you think Motherhood changed you as a person?